"Parents Things"

What if the home doesn't feel like home anymore? Growing up in a household where everything seems chaotic is never easy. Imagine coming home after a long, tiring day at school and ending up witnessing your parents beating and shouting at each other. I often think of leaving our house and going somewhere away from my chaotic parents. Everything is draining. Yet, I am fated to be in this household, not by accident but intentionally.  

I remember vividly the time when my heart shattered into pieces. It was 6 pm when I got home from school with my cousin. At that time, I had just finished getting my anti-rabies vaccine. My arm felt heavy like I was carrying tons of stones. The moment I stepped out of the motorcycle, I saw my drunk Father sitting in the chair while his head was lying on the table. I was about to go with him when my Mother arrived. When I saw her, my heart beat faster, my hand shook, and my body froze. I knew my Mother whenever she was angry-irresistible and aggressive. Her face was like a tomato, her nose was smoking, and her eyebrows furrowed. In my thoughts, this will be chaotic, and I was correct. My Mother beat up my Father and yelled at him. They exchanged hurtful words that tore me to pieces. I was desperately trying to stop them, but my Mother was hardheaded and aggressive. The supposed to be a punch of my Mother to my Father ended up with me, directly to my newly vaccinated arm. That was painful, but I didn't bother to feel the pain because I was afraid they might kill each other. 

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My parents argued because of the weight of our expenses and the vices of my Father. My Father burst into anger and finally revealed the heavyweight inside his chest. He said that my Mother has a mistress. When my dad stated those words, my Mother reacted violently by aggressively beating up my Father, and she denied everything. I stopped them, but my Mother threw stones at me. Being in that situation was scary. I did not know what to do, and a simple fight became a big commotion. I was so sorry for my younger brother. He was crying and afraid of the situation. He witnessed how they beat and shouted at each other. I prayed and begged God and tried my best to stop them. After a minute of their heated argument, they stopped and talked calmly. I thought they would separate ways, but thank God they fixed everything. 

This experience taught me that everything happens for a reason. It may be difficult, but there will always be a resolution. Because of this circumstance, I encountered a firm version of myself. I learned that to fix things, talk heart to heart, and calmly, you don't need to react and act violently because you will just hurt each other. 

I urge anyone who has also been in my situation to remain firm. Our parents may not be perfect but always remember, everyone is fated in that household and may not be as beautiful as other families. I believe there will always be uniqueness and happiness that only your family has. We may face troubles in our households, but it is a way that shapes a family to make a difference and build a bond that empowers unity, faith, hope, and love.